I'm somewhat back. Somewhat in a sense I probably wont be home for the next few weeks. Anyway, Taiwan was fun. Very fun. There were times where it sucked though but wont really want to elaborate much on that. Spoils from Taiwan were plenty but I wish I could have gotten more.



Again, loads of gundams. :D

It finally ended after some good number of years, a series which in some ways, lead me to certain things and destroy some has come to an end.

This particular manga series has a special meaning to my life. Not because of the story itself or how the message of the story but how it brought me to a certain group of people. Even though we dont really keep in touch or for some cases, lose all form of contact, it still made me remember them. 

In reality, I cant even remember some of their faces or their respective persona, but I'll try to remember their existence at least. 

About time they process the order. Seriously, waiting one week for a card deduction is seriously too long. 

Its that time again. This time destination, Taiwan. Hopefully the weather aint so bad. If it is, it'll be freaking troublesome albeit the R&R would be great.

Hopefully I have some worth mention spoils by the end of the trip. I decided to completely scrap the whole idea of a mass upgrade of the system because I came to realise I don't do more than simple stuff on it. In fact, I'm better off getting something low powered or something since all I do is video conversions and mass  DLing. But getting another HDD seems to be a necessity now seeing how my collection of media files seems to be growing exponentially for the past few months. Blame on technology and research development for this. They've been producing too many cheap hardware that I barely need to spend a bomb on something rather decent. 1TB? No problem. 2TB? Wait next year. 

And yeah, I doubt I'd ever buy stuff from HLJ again. Its not that the service suck but how they dont really bother changing their system. I was wondering why the hell an order takes like a day to confirm and why they need to manually check for stocks. Turns out they dont have a proper queue system. I dont know how they do thier stuff but taking stuff to process takes like forever sometimes. Maybe I'm too used from buying stuff with free shipping or from local sellers. Either way, hopefully the order made through. They claimed free shipping for a short period of time, but I dont see my money being deducted from paypal at all. And I am dead sure the amount I set aside in the debit card is sufficient. The promotion was, with paypal billing agreement, shipping would be free if all purchases and orders were made and paid from 21st to 28th sept. Well, its already past 28th on their side. I still dont see the amount deducted. They're having some sever maintenance. Hopefully everything settles by the time I wake up next morning. I dont want an order where I have to pay for the shipping when they offered no payment for it. Well, we'll see I suppose.

On the side note, Eid mubarak to those who celebrate. And the same to those who simply enjoys the holidays  :)

Not forgetting Happy Belated Birthday Sab. Though its probably too belated right now haha. 

Its been soooooooooo long since I last took a decent break. With the new wave of new guys coming in, about time they let me slack for a bit. Working day in day out, waiting and waiting is somewhat miserable. Its always the never ending waiting. 
 

About time I got some cleaning done. I throw out quite a number of things from my room, mostly 'trash which I didnt threw out the last time'. Yes, I actually accumulate trash in my room. Not just a piece or two, but really plastic wrappers or blister packs of stuff I buy all over the place ( which I always wonder where they went after a day lol ). I dare say about, 60% of em are gone?

And yeah, spoils of the month : 


lots and lots of gundams D:
 
new system case D:

Off to taiwan next month. Hopefully there wont be any screw ups over there.

This is fucking stupid. Although I did told my parents that we needed the 10mbps upgrade due to our extreme usages, I seriously did not remember telling them to sign up for the freaking mio box. Somehow my aunt manage to psycho them into getting it, and I seriously forsee that I am gonna regret. Not only is my whole current network configuration is gonna get screwed, I have to revamp it with something foreign altogether! I dont have the time to figure out the mechanics of it. And I've been hearing too many bad comments bout the mio box.

Fucking fustrating.

When a mere touch means so much, what does it mean to another? Its significance, its value, everything surrounding it. Its definitely not clairvoyance when it means the time has come, or hopefully not I suppose. Not like the last time. I dont dare to approach for saying the truth or the honesty of my soul. I maybe a liar but I do not know how to lie. Simply being naive? I hope thats the only case right now.

 

A relative of mine passed away some days back. It was sudden but again expected. He died due to old age, something which all of us which would eventually succumb to. But the sudden death reminded me of an old memory. A very very old memory which coincidentally happened around this time of the year at that time. It reminded me of this old relative which we went house visiting to. It was the occasion I suppose and somewhat of a formality. During the visit, I felt his hand. It felt cold. A different kind of cold. It wasnt damp, nor was it dry ( I wouldnt say moist is the right term either here ) but simply best described as lifeless? A lifeless hand. But he was all in all "lively". He wasnt senile yet. Nor was he showing any signs of it. He was happily eating the meal he made himself while enjoying some TV program which was on (if I recall correctly it involves dancing women. Talk about vitality here haha). Sad to say, less than a week later he passed on. 


What did I felt? What did I experience? What exactly happened? I dont know. It was since that point of time I dont dare to evaluate anymore. I dont dare to visit nor do I dare to see. If that experience in its own is an indicator, I might be able to feel it once more. To tell others of the truth, to tell the world of whats to come, an unspoken taboo. 



Life still goes on, another old man goes by.

This is definitely sweet. In a sense anyway haha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?gl=JP&hl=ja&v=lJtE0Ij7jis&fmt=18

Seems like my only overused social skill is to talk about work, work and more work to a point where it gets too competitive that it probably sparked several preventable arguments. Ranting about who has it worse, discussing bout it, funny stories mostly but it gets no fun when it leads to who is the worse off. Bad habit. Horrible Habit. Cant stop being negative for some reason.

If only the pessimist in me would stop being so comparable about the wrong things and maybe perhaps start making me more cautious instead. A simple "hi" could lead to some fucking disastrous turn of events. Misunderstanding the situation. Curiosity which really kills. A very difficult "sorry". A trait which I am not so proud of. Not being grateful? Lets not forget that. Myopic scope in life? That too I guess. It all seems to end in distruction ultimately.

Being angry. Angsty. Exasperated. Cynical. Reluctant. More importantly, guilt. The one which I can never seem to shoulder yet those flashbacks will always come back. Staring into blank space does that to me a lot. Thinking over not so useful stuff, wishful thinking. Sick. Tired. Fed up.

Thailand was a great place I'd say. It wasnt like my last 2 trips, those were rather bad, or rather, the tour groups are just out to get my money. But in general, they're rather nice people and such. Its kinda sad I didnt really get to know the Thai people (stuff happened. I was locked away for 2 weeks =\).

Okays...
Long sleep earlier on = bad.............. cos.................




NOW CANT SLEEP DAMMIT.

Brother's PSP went boom (not literally but yeah "boom")
Now stuck with useless PSP.
Thailand this Saturday.
DS aint here yet.
Hoodie still with Nicky.
Some stuff stolen from med centre (no issue. But still big issue. My stuff btw).






WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO

Getting back lost sleep from the past few weeks all at one go is no laughing issue. Back to back 12 hour slumber sessions leave a painful brain crack split. I blame the small yellow pill.

I'll be flying off again and this time to Thailand. I'm not sure exactly which part of thai, but it cant be as bad as Brunei can it?
Though I'm not too estatic bout it, at least its a 3 week getaway from all the internal politics and such. I'm praying they dont send me off to Brunei right after I return. That'll be a pain in the arse.

PS: Please dont ask me to get any soveniours. I'm a poor poor poor poor poor bastard right now aye.

PS once more: If you're reading this Nic, we might have to delay another month.

One more year to go baby. JUST ONE MORE YEAR TO GO. Thats like, another 6 or so overseas trips. This year's covered list is 3. And upcoming list is another 4 fucking more trips. WOOT.

Saw em around yesterday even though technically it aint supposed to be around yet. Was DAMN bloody tempted to get those. 149 bucks for something which works close to a 4850, more than a 8800GT/9800GT, running on GDDR5 ram with and only drawing out 80 watts D: . Not to mention CF performance is equivalent to like 285GTX (I think).

DAMN you wallet. DAMN YOU FOR NOT HAVING MONEY argh... But I doubt it will work with my current rig. DAMN YOU BOTTLENECK ISSUES.

Stuff on DX finally came in yesterday. Took them damn long to send it over even so, they left out like one item from the list. Dont know why it wasnt sent together even though its under "ready". One fact pisses me off was when they delayed this one particular item and kept extending the arrival date. Ended up delaying the whole order for about a week. No point paying for EMS when its going to take the same time as normal shipping =/. Rather have them sent in seperate orders man... Seriously pissed.

I thought I would be estatic when I saw the stuff at home. Ended up they still screw up my orders. The batteries I ordered didnt arrive instead, they gave me something of similar value but definitely lesser ~___~. Fuck. I checked the store, what they gave me was a dollar cheaper. Argh, thats like 5 bucks gone. Usually I wont bother ranting about 5 bucks but ARGH, the condition of some stuff which came is HORRIBLE. Well, its cheap anyway.

Regardless of all the bashing, still gonna buy from them I suppose. Cant do much. Local shops here rip more than them =/.

GAH 3 MORE HOURS GAH

Got myself a PSP some days back and am somewhat surprised on what its actually capable of. Really amazed at how custom firmware can really make a huge difference when it comes to homebrew apps and such. Pity it aint black though =/

On most cases, I'd typically try to snake my way through out of it. I've learnt that the best thing to do is to act blur, keep your mouth shut at the right times, and most importantly, dont sabo your own people unless your butt is on the line there.